UPCOMING EVENTS for 2016: Puerto Rico Marathon (March), Virginia/Pennsylvania Marathon Double (April), Cedro Peak Ultra 45k (April), Quicksilver 50k (May) NUT 50k (June) Lake Tahoe Trail 50K (July), Cloudsplitter 55K (October)

It's never too late to be what you might have been. --George Eliot

Athena is the Goddess of wisdom and war. In 2005, I declared war on my own bad tendencies: sloth, being fat, compacency, and being too old for adventure. This is the story of how I went from being someone who never stood when she could sit, to being an ultrarunner, marathoner, and triathlete. Along the way I've cried, laughed, fallen, gotten up, lost, won, hallucinated, been dehydrated, DNF'ed, and been DFL.
I also swear. Alot.
"You're never too old to be what you might have been" --George Eliot

Thursday, July 12, 2012

I won't go changin'.

Dear Diary,

I finally figured out that I can load the "old" blogger interface! Yay! Then I was bummed out when I reealized my work computer still won't let me post. Boo. However, it won't let me save a post as a draft, so there's no way of knowing if this is even going to post.

It occurs to me that there are some things that running hasn't changed about me.

13. It hasn't improved my decision-making skills. This past weekend for reasons I cannot fathom I am now signed up for the Bandera 100k. It's in January. Mmm. There's a fairly generous cutoff, I think, and I've been told that there's some nasty step climbs and then lots of runnable stuff. What the hell; I won't know if I try, right?

12. On the other hand, I'm certain I have made one decision: I was asked the other day if I was working my way up to doing 100 miler. i am not.. At least, I don't think so. What I've been able to figure out is that running 100 miles is a lot like getting a PhD. You have to really, really, want it. I don't. Then again, I once said that I didn't really feel the need to ever do a marathon. Still later, I said I didn't feel the need to ever do an Ironman. So much for resolve.

Thing is, if I don't have a crazy-assed long race looming on the horizon then I have trouble getting up and running. And if I don't train, I'll gain weight.

I'm not even sure if I can pull off the Vermont 100k on the 21st. But I've already been assigned a bib number 431.

11. Also, I've agreed to do the swim leg at the Cochiti oly triathlon. This is a week after Vermont. Our team is the Honeybadgers, because we don't give a $hit. Since then, I've been trying to get up early enough to get into a pool. Friday, I will do it. I mean it. Will.

10. Running hasn't made me neater. Poor Baboo. His mother warned me when we decided to get married that he's picky, and I took that to mean that I might be xtra special, since he's so picky. But I worry that he suffers so. Honestly, I don't like being messy. I'm not one for glorifying it or making dumb excuses I need for everything to be out where I can see it. So, I am working on some mindfulness stuff to try to concentrate on doing just one thing at a time. Take out what I need, do what I need, put it away. I'm working on it.

9. On the other hand, I've made good progress on simplifying. Doors slide shut easily on my dresser. I can find things. I open cabinets and I can see what's inside. It's awesome. You know how when you first walk into an empty house you love how spacious it is? Then you fill it up with stuff. That's what I did...but now, the house is starting to look spacious again. I feel i have more time to run, because I can find things, and i love coming home to my cozy, but spacious, home.

8. Running also hasn't changed my attraction to batter-dipped, fried foods. Or anything with coconut in it. The trifecta, of course, would be coconut chocolate anything, batter-dipped and fried. Ooohhhhhh. But I digress.

7. Running hasn't changed peri-menopause. Lately, hot flashes and night sweats have been driving me crazy. I wake up in wet sheets five or six times per night. I finally got some standardized Black Cohosh tablets, which has worked for me before. If they don't start working soon I'm taking the plunge -- HRT. No, I don't want to hear any horror stories about it, thanks.

6. Running hasn't changed my love of baths. I wish I had a deep, garden tub. Right now my bathtub is attached to the shower that the resident 21-year-old is using. It's far less relaxing when I have to lock the door and who knows what kind of boy germs are floating around?

5. Running hasn't changed my general annoyance toward parents, particularly the ones who can't seem to separate themselves from their children. But I suppose I am a bit more patient.

4. Running hasn't made me more confident about my looks. I still wear makeup to trail runs.

3. Running hasn't caused me to stop eating in my car. It's pretty gross. It's next on my hit list of bad habits.

2. Running hasn't made me less of a geek. I like that my bib number for Vermont is a prime number. And I'm currently working on my pace chart for Vermont in Excel.

1. What running has done is make life in general less frightening. All the managed care reviewers, oblivious parents, and general unpleasantries that life has are less daunting. At least it's not an ironman, I think. At least it's not a 30 mile run in Colorado. no, it's just an asshole with an attitude.

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5 comments:

  1. I don't remember how old you are but I finally could not TAKE the sleeplessness and night sweats and went on bioidentical HRT for 18 months. BEST decision I ever made. But I did go into it eyes wide open and knowing I wouldn't stay on it.

    Read Christiane Northrup's book The Wisdom of Menopause if you haven't already. It's brilliant and I think it should be required reading for all peri-menopausal women.

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  2. Re perimenopause - BLEAH! I described it to my sister (who went into instant chemo-menopause due to breast cancer) this way: it's like puberty, in reverse, and now it matters if you're bitchy or have mood swings or instant inexplicable rage/fury sensations or burst into tears, especially at work. And the joy of breakthrough bleeding, sudden clumsiness, concentration/memory issues - b/c thyroid ones weren't enough, and digestive surprises. (also, the return of cystic acne, seriously? how unfair is that?!) Top that off with effects on sleep and sooo much fun for me and my nearest and dearest. :) I'm too scared/high-risk of breast cancer and other stuff to take HRT/cohosh, tho still on bcp for as long as I can.

    I did buy Sheex, which helps make the nights more tolerable. (basically wicking sheets made out of the same stuff you'd find in workout clothes) I bought the travel one (cheapest since I wasn't sure how it would work) and use it on my bed as well as traveling. It's styled a bit like a sleeping bag with pillow pocket.

    Re #9 - sounds so good - simplified, cozy, spacious.
    Re #12 - I know having races to train for is motivation for me. I'm sticking with getting back to marathoning but I do occasionally feel a pull toward ultras or tris. I just tell myself "not now, after the other goals".

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  3. I do really love running - but also, one of the best things that can be said about it is that it doesn't involve BICYCLES!

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  4. I told my daughter last night that most of my endurance and fight came from being in my office for 35 years seeing group after group after group of never-ending kids. Every time I do a long training ride/run/swim or a race I think "at least it's not an IEP meeting after seeing 40 kids today"! ;-)

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  5. Misty, when I cut meat out of my diet, the hot flashes stopped. The only menopausal symptom I have is a bit of insomnia, which I can live with. I know you used to be vegetarian; maybe you should try it again and see if it helps.

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