Ready for my Closeup, Mr. Deville.

Actually, what I am ready for, is to go back to work.

I'm just not very good at being idle. I haven't taken on any new clients at the counseling center because of the new job at the VA, and so I have a small number I'm seeing each week. There only so much I can do before I just get bored doing it.

I'm just not used to being off work. The last time I was off work and without an income was in 1990 to early 1991, for about 15 months. We had an agreement that I would stay home, and I was pregnant with my youngest. By the time he was born, though, I thought I'd go out of my mind, and 4 months later I was in college and working part-time. Other than that, and this current part-time employment, I've had an income since I was 15 years old.

It's not that I'm not enjoying it; I am. It's just that I'm not used to being home, and so I'm not industrious in all the ways that full-time housewives are. I haven't worked out a system. I still have it in my head that I'm just on vacation, and so I waste time with all manner of nonsense: facebook, Scrubs' reruns, and email take up a lot of time. If I were off more of the time, I'd probably establish some sort of routine that was efficient and allowed me to do all manner of useful things. As it is, I'm just plain idle. I'm waiting for the VA to complete a background check on me so that I can be allowed to work there.

So, for the next couple weeks I'm going to make a list of project to work on and get finished. I'm hoping the ones I have in mind will be especially happy-making for Sweet Baboo, since they center mainly around me getting rid of boxes of old teaching crap.

This morning, I'm going to run to the aquatic center, swim, and then run back. We'll see how THAT goes.

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