As I obsess, pack, and continue to view the course map and profile for Sunday's run, I find myself asking, why do I do this?
Every time I do that the answer is different.
So this time, the answer is, because it makes me feel like I'm in control.
Leadership makes me want to break out in hives. So after spending about the first half of my life working and struggling and being largely successful in my endevors, I was happy to turn it over to someone else. Sweet Baboo is one of those natural-born leaders; he does all the planning and arranging, and he surrounds me in a nice, big bubble in which I am protected. There are contingencies for every possibility...I am insured and protected in every way I can be.
Every once in a while, I like to take a little vacation in setting a goal and meeting it under my own steam, through my own fortitude. That's what running a marathon does for me, or finishing an ironman, or an ultra trail ran. I start out alone, experience my own little worry and drama, and usually finish alone, and it's mine, all mine.