UPCOMING EVENTS for 2016: Puerto Rico Marathon (March), Virginia/Pennsylvania Marathon Double (April), Cedro Peak Ultra 45k (April), Quicksilver 50k (May) NUT 50k (June) Lake Tahoe Trail 50K (July), Cloudsplitter 55K (October)

It's never too late to be what you might have been. --George Eliot

Athena is the Goddess of wisdom and war. In 2005, I declared war on my own bad tendencies: sloth, being fat, compacency, and being too old for adventure. This is the story of how I went from being someone who never stood when she could sit, to being an ultrarunner, marathoner, and triathlete. Along the way I've cried, laughed, fallen, gotten up, lost, won, hallucinated, been dehydrated, DNF'ed, and been DFL.
I also swear. Alot.
"You're never too old to be what you might have been" --George Eliot

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

Teaching number 3.

"...A warrior accepts that we can never know what we will happen to us next. We can try to control the uncontrollable by looking for security and predictability, always hoping to be comfortable and safe. But the truth is that we can never avoid uncertainty . This non-knowing is part of the adventure. It's always what makes us afraid.

"Wherever we are, we can train as a warrior. Our tools are sitting meditation, tonglen, slogan practice, and cultivating the four limitless qualities of loving-kindness, compassion, joy, and equanimity. With the help of these practices, we will find the tenderness of bochichitta in sorry and in gratitude, behind the hardness of rage and in the shakiness of fear. In loneliness as well as in kindness, we can uncover the the soft sport of basic goodness. But bodhichitta training offers no promise of happy endings. Rather, this 'I' who wants to find security, who wants something to hold onto, we will finally learn to grow up.

"If we find ourselves in doubt that we're up to being a warrior--in-training, we can contemplate this question: 'Do I prefer to grow up and relate to life directly, or do I choose to live and die in fear?'"

From: Chodron, P., (2002). Teaching 3, Comfortable With Uncertainty. in E. Sell, Ed., Comfortable with Uncertainty: 108 Teachings. Shambhala, Boston, US.


  1. I didn't know you were into Shambhala. I've done Level I training and attended an "Everyday Life" workshop last weekend. Pema Chodron is my hero. :-)

  2. Thank you so much for posting this. I really needed to hear this today.

  3. I love Pema Chodron's books. _CwI_ is just the perfect size, too: easy to carry around and useful for these kinds of reminders. *salutes, one warrior-in-training to another*


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