Thursday, January 13, 2005


Why am I doing this
Well, I woke up this morning, January 14, 2005 and I weigh 194 lbs. When I graduated from high school, I weighed 120. Of course, I grew another inch that year, but even still, my "ideal weight" is around 135, with a 10% allowance either way for frame size. So, ideally, I should weigh between 122 and 148 american pounds. 194 pounds (which is 88 kg) places me in the "clinically obese" category.

I cannot go up a flight of stairs in the school where I teach without reaching the top, out of breath, and muttering "F**K!" under my breath.

My collegues say I don't look like I weigh much, but maybe they're being charitable. I'm 5'6" and pushing a size 18. I think that's the problem with the United States: Rampant denial.I'm also going to occasionally drop some images on this page that I got by going to googles images and typing in "fat".

The amazing thing is that I went from 142 to 194 in just 4 and a half years. 13 pounds a year doesn't sound like much, but after 4 years have gone by--behold, you've gained 52 pounds. This afternoon, I'm going to join a quasi-"weight-watchers" group of other teachers and set some goals.

I want to weigh less.
I want to be able to walk up a hill, or a flight of stairs, without feeling like my heart is leaping out of my chest and I'm going to throw up.
I want to wear normal clothes.
that's not too much to ask, is it?


  1. Hello there! I too found out this morning that I weigh 194 and I am also 5 ft. 6 in. I am forcing myself to squeeze into a 14 but I am in major denial. I had a doctors appointment this morning and that is when I saw the dreaded #. I have been this heavy for 3.5 years now after giving birth. When I went into the hospital to deliver my 9 pound baby, I weighed 191--so you do the math. I've put on more weight now!
    I hate looking into my closet and only being able to wear 1/10th of my clothes.
    Want to work together? I want to weight 135, but at this point I'd be happy with 155!!

  2. Allison, you didn't leave me a way to get in touch with you. This was a post that I made back in 2005. I'm now down to 155, so it can be done. I seem to have stalled there for a while. If you read through my posts over the months, you'll see how I did it, how I learned to run, etc.

  3. That's great! I am currently starting at close to 300 lbs. I left high school at 200 lbs. I have had some issues for the last few years. I am not going to make excuses, but after 2 back surgeries I feel like I need to run up the white flag. Surrender to the fact that I am overweight now, not listen to those people who say "you don't look fat" and get it in gear. My current problem is that I have RSD and can't walk far. I am going to try biking. When I finished sixth grade I was large. probably 250 lbs. By the time I got to high school I was lean again. I moved to a new school to start over. Even after you have lost weight and look like Brad Pitt the people who knew you before can't see it. As I cannot return to work driving a truck because of the pain medications I am on I am going back to school to go for a degree as a Doctor of Osteopathy. I have a lot of support from my friends here, and I am praying I can make it.

    Sorry for rambling, but again congratz! You did a great job.!

  4. Allison, what a journey! In 2005 I was 226#s at 5'6", now 145 which is up from my lowest weight of 136. It is a constant struggle for me. What I truly admire about people like you is the guts to compete. I run, I run a lot. My longest run to date is 18 miles but still I have no courage to do a marathon. You are quite an inspiration.
    Thanks for sharing.

  5. Congratulations! I found your blog after googling marathon blogs and Mrs. Duffy had your link. I was 90kg in May (well a lot longer than just May, but you know) of 2008 and decided I didn't want to be 90kg anymore. I lost around 12-13kg by December and kept it all off last year and lost about 2kg more. So I'm now around 75kg. I need to drop at least 5 more and then we'll see.

    I can't imagine doing a full Ironman but loved the 1/2. Go you!

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